On Aging.
I have to say that if five years ago you told me I would have struggles around the aging process I wouldn’t have believed you. I did a lot of work around my mindset and after traveling the world and seeing firsthand how blessed I am that I even get the opportunity to grow old, I didn’t expect to be affected by societal pressures or expectations. I didn’t expect to want to look any different than I currently am, at any phase of life.
Alas, this is where I found myself. I’ve worked through a lot of it, and there were certain triggers that led me to feel insecure about this process which I recognize were quite silly now, but I also recognize that I am a human woman and this is something I believe we will all move through at some point, on some level.
This is a very open post about my experience and how I’ve come to a more peaceful place with my personal aging process.
When I was 27 I was living in Australia and had a close friend who was 43, I remember her telling me one day at brunch that all of her girlfriends are going through their “first death” and it’s so sad. I asked what she meant and she explained that the death of their beauty (based on aging) is the first death before they actually die. I remember thinking how sad it was that they put that much emphasis on the external to the point they viewed their beauty diminishing simply due to aging. I thought that would absolutely never be me.
I’ve created a lifestyle and a career based off of self love, and it has been humbling in ways to realize that I too am not beyond the insecurities, fears, and triggers that us as women move through as we age.